"it was a strange thing about college. you felt like you were supposed to be finding yourself there. each person she saw, she thought, will you mean something to me? will we figure into each other's lives?"

- "forever in blue" by ann brashares

"You know when you've read a good book when you turn the last page and feel a little as if you have lost a friend."
-Paul Sweeney

LadonaMission (11:58:06 PM): baby
LadonaMission (11:58:08 PM): oops
LadonaMission (11:58:12 PM): wrong window

e.e. cummings - i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

eightyfouur (12:59:30 AM): today was my cousins birthday
eightyfouur (12:59:33 AM): well the 13th was
nickkadamss (12:59:36 AM): the one getting married?
eightyfouur (12:59:40 AM): no
eightyfouur (12:59:42 AM): kate
eightyfouur (12:59:47 AM): who's like with her mom at my house
nickkadamss (12:59:48 AM): oh okay
eightyfouur (12:59:50 AM): watching my dogs
eightyfouur (12:59:51 AM): well
eightyfouur (12:59:56 AM): we called her at like dinner time
eightyfouur (12:59:58 AM): and were like
eightyfouur (1:00:03 AM): what did you get for your birthday
eightyfouur (1:00:05 AM): and she was like
eightyfouur (1:00:08 AM): "a dog"
eightyfouur (1:00:12 AM): and we were like ....what?
eightyfouur (1:00:18 AM): cause like she lives in an apt
eightyfouur (1:00:22 AM): and they dont allow dogs
eightyfouur (1:00:30 AM): and she was like "yeah....and it's going to stay at your house"
eightyfouur (1:00:33 AM): and we were like
eightyfouur (1:00:35 AM): .......say what
eightyfouur (1:01:00 AM): and she was like "yeah and we named it mary after our grandmother because it was born the same day she died"
eightyfouur (1:01:03 AM): and we were like WHAT
eightyfouur (1:01:12 AM): and then we found out the story
eightyfouur (1:01:13 AM): and like
eightyfouur (1:01:18 AM): my aunt just bought her a pug
eightyfouur (1:01:23 AM): and is keeping it at our house
eightyfouur (1:01:30 AM): until she figures out how to get it into her apt
eightyfouur (1:01:34 AM): without like asking us...
nickkadamss (1:01:38 AM): . . . . . .
nickkadamss (1:01:39 AM): wtf??
eightyfouur (1:01:41 AM): I KNOW RIGHT
nickkadamss (1:01:42 AM): kill it
eightyfouur (1:01:45 AM): my dad is SOOO PISSED
eightyfouur (1:01:48 AM): it was scary
nickkadamss (1:01:49 AM): be like, "oh it looked tasty."
eightyfouur (1:01:53 AM): im pissed too
eightyfouur (1:01:55 AM): well
eightyfouur (1:01:59 AM): im hoping my dog will just eat it
eightyfouur (1:02:09 AM): like shes giving it OUR dogfood and shit
eightyfouur (1:02:11 AM): like wtfff
eightyfouur (1:02:15 AM): im pretty pissed
nickkadamss (1:02:21 AM): OKAY KILL THAT BITCHHHH
eightyfouur (1:02:23 AM): and really dont want to go home and deal with it now
nickkadamss (1:02:24 AM): I'll go over
eightyfouur (1:02:27 AM): LMAO
nickkadamss (1:02:28 AM): burn the whole house down
eightyfouur (1:02:30 AM): nooo
eightyfouur (1:02:35 AM): my stuff and my puppies
nickkadamss (1:02:41 AM): okay
eightyfouur (1:02:43 AM): omg so much shit is gonna go down
eightyfouur (1:02:53 AM): when me and my dad get back
eightyfouur (1:02:56 AM): im afraid
nickkadamss (1:02:57 AM): oooh
eightyfouur (1:02:59 AM): like legal shit
eightyfouur (1:03:00 AM): cause
eightyfouur (1:03:03 AM): she cant have it in her apt
nickkadamss (1:03:04 AM): i'll come watch
nickkadamss (1:03:04 AM): what time?
eightyfouur (1:03:11 AM): and apparently she got her doctor to write a note
eightyfouur (1:03:15 AM): like im not kidding
eightyfouur (1:03:23 AM): some shit that like she needs the dog for medical reasons
nickkadamss (1:03:23 AM): .........
eightyfouur (1:03:27 AM): like WTF IS THAT
nickkadamss (1:03:29 AM): ............
eightyfouur (1:03:36 AM): thats what you use for gym class
eightyfouur (1:03:43 AM): not for like....pets in an apt
eightyfouur (1:03:46 AM): its so fucked up